YoU in the EYE of otherS

Gak akan gue pungkiri bahwa beberapa bulan terakhir ini gue ngerasa that I'm at the lowest point of my life. Berasa clueless....that's the thing I hate the most to be happening to me...but that's how I feel.
Awalnya soal kerjaan...I thought....but after I got a new job with 180 degrees difference with everything I had before, I'm still unhappy.
Awalnya soal PRIA (yeap, I'm THAT cliche)...I thought...but after I got this wonderful guy as my boyfriend for the past 1 year, I'm still feeling restless.
Many friends have told me that for the past few months...I lost MY SPARKS...and then, again, I say "You know what...I miss my old ME".
How pathetic that feeling is....don't you think?

A few days ago...I called this good old friend. Kita gak contact on regular basis, tapi kalo ada hal2 yang udah buntu biasanya kita (atau gue?) akan langsung telpon2an. Basically, I told him about my clueless-ness....and he was so shocked, he said this part of me was never on his mind since we became friends about 10 years ago....
And so....he wrote sumthin in his blog....dan ini penggalannya :

.. she's a smart woman, have a loving boy friend that hopefully soon to be husband, nice family, very well educated, graduated from a high profile highschool in the capital, get her degree from the most prestigious uni in this country, have lots of friends, fun to be with, easy to get along, bought and rides her own car, have a nice hi managerial-level job on a wellknown multinational bank...highly paid salary, i dunno about the working hours tho, but if i may guess, she prolly still be able to hang out or get a coffee date at starbucks around 7ish if she wants..(that's a good working hour i assume..)
she's a very good friend from back then...can't say that i knew her very well inside out..walau ga sering2 contact2an...tapi... we're still close..jauh dimata dekat di hati kali yaah..huhauhau....cause u know wut, we always able to get "clicked" immediately after the "hello, gileee...pakabar lu.."..she's one of a girl that i always enjoy talking and listening to...oh iya..dia juga salah seorang teman yang nomornya udah nempel di kepala gue walau nomornya bukan no. cantik hehehe..

I instantly CRIED after reading this! I mean...di tengah segala kegalauan gue....gue bener2 shock bahwa di mata seorang teman lama...gue adalah manusia seperti itu. Manusia yang sebenarnya sudah dianugerahi berbagai berkah yang mestinya bisa disyukuri....yang mestinya gak bikin gue unhappy.....

Manusia yang ternyata punya makna tersendiri buat seorang teman lama....

Thanks a lot J.....u just made my day.....and I hope, you've made my live in the near future too..